This is an IM KATE had with her "boyfriend" the night she
died...( 23 pages...of mental fistfighting between my 16 year old daughter and
her 20 year old " I'm gonna buy a gun and kill people...HEADSMASHERMAN...)
Such a tough guy, he can be proud of himself.
It clearly shows her decision to escape the world that the abusive
relationship had generated over the previous 18 months. Note the constant reference
to death by the HEADSMASHER, he is good at that. The night she died( after this
IM), he was in our driveway calling her every name in the book because she was
trying to go out with someone else. This was all it took for her to go over
the edge, she went inside and hung herself.
It's time for HEADSMASHERs' mommy to get him the help he has needed
for years now, since that is her profession. She seems to be good at paying
to get him out of trouble over and over and over, why not get him real help
? or out of our community would be preferrable???
PROTECT OUR KIDS !!!!!!!! From the first encounter when his mom dropped
him off at our house ( he had lost his license) with a stack of videos he planned
to watch with Kate ( she was 14, he was 18 already out of HS ....H E L L O !!!)
I had him call his moms' cell ...and come back and get him...2 minutes later...
( remember smashermom ???), Kathy and I did everything in our power to keep
this kid out of our lives... nothing worked, because Kate herself loved him...her
fatal flaw.
We knew he was trouble, as he forced his way into our life that Summer,
she was 14 years old, court orders failed, a lecture by the judge failed to
have any effect on him, the relationship persisted, we gave in and accepted
him 16 months after they saw each other behind our back and it was obviously
not a healthy relationship, but the damage was complete, as she was not allowed
to go back to her friends when she made the decision to break it off... sadly
her Mom was in the next room that night, but she had been removed from the safety
of our love, Kate thought she was alone in her tragic relationship. We consider
her safe from SMASHER now, and we will always remember the happy girl she was
her whole life before SMASHER headsmashed her...
I have read this 100 times.... why did my girl have to wage this battle
? Why was this moron allowed to take her life away? Kates' troubles began and
ended with HEADSMASHERDOPE , he was our SINGLE POINT OF FAILURE. He is nothing
but trouble, hopefully he will continue to lose his license on a monthly basis,
and stay away from Medway. We continually hear of stories from people that have
had encounters with HEADSMASHER in the past years, he has had quite a history
in multiple towns, too bad my daughter had to die because of his continuing
stupidity. He is an evil kid , empowered by his mother, apparantly never taught
any respect for others. However taught well to follow laywers advise and get
stories straight !!! hahahahahah not...
Email your thoughts or comments to al@ktksound.com
I have the bunny ! ... - AL Kennedy
========IM from Feb 21, 2004==============================
HeadSmasherMan
: ya hey this is gerry, come i need t
ask you somehting
HeadSmasherMan
: came back
Auto response from
somethingvaguexo: come over
HeadSmasherMan: ahh i can't type
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: hi
HeadSmasherMan: do you really want me to
die
HeadSmasherMan: seriously
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: ok good
somethingvaguexo: why did you send me my away message
HeadSmasherMan: cuz i was going to do it if you said
yes
HeadSmasherMan: i didn't
somethingvaguexo: oh woops
somethingvaguexo: sorry im dumb
HeadSmasherMan: its ok
HeadSmasherMan: why did you yell at me all the
time
HeadSmasherMan: i didn't do
anything
somethingvaguexo: i dont know
HeadSmasherMan: everyone is against
me
HeadSmasherMan: im scared to go
places
somethingvaguexo: ive done a lot of thinking lately
HeadSmasherMan: and
somethingvaguexo: im sorry i said all that shit
somethingvaguexo: i want us to be cool
HeadSmasherMan: well i think that you going out with
wilkee is an awful idea but if that makes you happy fine
HeadSmasherMan: but i don't think you want
that
HeadSmasherMan: but i can't say anything
anymore
somethingvaguexo: things have been pretty hectic and i was out of it
HeadSmasherMan: now everyone hates
me
HeadSmasherMan: everyonbody
somethingvaguexo: like who
HeadSmasherMan: like al,most
literlly
somethingvaguexo: i only know jen
HeadSmasherMan: like everyone i ever
met
HeadSmasherMan: except tim and tom and steve and
tony
HeadSmasherMan: jen is insane
HeadSmasherMan: you know that
somethingvaguexo: haha\
somethingvaguexo: i know
HeadSmasherMan: seriously
HeadSmasherMan: shes missing part of her
brain
somethingvaguexo: she stole a hambster from teh mall
somethingvaguexo: actaully i did but she made me
HeadSmasherMan: that was smart
HeadSmasherMan: whatever though
HeadSmasherMan: im so bored
somethingvaguexo: hahahahahahah teh skinny pig was still there
HeadSmasherMan: thats funny
somethingvaguexo: sorry
HeadSmasherMan: i talked ot wilkee last
night
somethingvaguexo: i thought it was
somethingvaguexo: why
HeadSmasherMan: cuz i hadto tell him my
side
HeadSmasherMan: no one else would
somethingvaguexo: did you make him hate me or somethuing
HeadSmasherMan: i wanted to know if you really wanted
me to die
somethingvaguexo: cuz he hasnt called me a ll day
HeadSmasherMan: hes at his sisters
HeadSmasherMan: hes not oging to
HeadSmasherMan: hes not like me
somethingvaguexo: no defenitly not
HeadSmasherMan: he won't
somethingvaguexo: what are you talking about
somethingvaguexo: hes not going to what
HeadSmasherMan: call everyday
somethingvaguexo: ohh yeah i know
somethingvaguexo: im not used to it
somethingvaguexo: its annoying
somethingvaguexo: how did you know i was going out with him
HeadSmasherMan: i know everything
HeadSmasherMan: i thats an awful idea as i
said
somethingvaguexo: no really im just wondering
HeadSmasherMan: you don't even talk to
him
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: yes i d
HeadSmasherMan: were winning (12:15:53 AM): i dont
think she much cares for you, and im sure at the time she was
angry
HeadSmasherMan: thats what he said to
me
somethingvaguexo: anout what?
HeadSmasherMan: nice profile thatnks a
lot
somethingvaguexo: hey
somethingvaguexo: ill take it out
HeadSmasherMan: do you know i was on the verge of
death for a week
HeadSmasherMan: you left me alone and
dead
HeadSmasherMan: after you yelled at
me
somethingvaguexo: im really sorry if i could take back everything... i hope you know i
would
HeadSmasherMan: no i don't know
that
somethingvaguexo: and i mean everything
somethingvaguexo: well you do now
HeadSmasherMan: and it kills me that you are driving
around laugging about me
HeadSmasherMan: with everone
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha gerry sucks
HeadSmasherMan: hahah yea i know
HeadSmasherMan: hahahahahhaha
somethingvaguexo: what? i dont talk about you
HeadSmasherMan: i realy doubt that
HeadSmasherMan: im a huge joke
somethingvaguexo: no im serious
somethingvaguexo: i dont
somethingvaguexo: neither does anyone else
HeadSmasherMan: well whatever i want to know what you
did to me effected me ina wway i cannot describe
HeadSmasherMan: want you to know*
somethingvaguexo: they dont talk about it because i tell them not to
somethingvaguexo: i can only imagine
HeadSmasherMan: no you can't trust
me
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: i was on the verge of
death
somethingvaguexo: oh nm
HeadSmasherMan: seriously
somethingvaguexo: i was too
HeadSmasherMan: what would you have done id i
died
somethingvaguexo: kill myseld
HeadSmasherMan: you were in a place to get
help
HeadSmasherMan: you told me to
somethingvaguexo: not when i came home
HeadSmasherMan: too kill myself
HeadSmasherMan: a number of times
somethingvaguexo: you have no idea how mad i was
somethingvaguexo: at what? i dont know
HeadSmasherMan: niabout
what?!?!?!?!
HeadSmasherMan: yea
somethingvaguexo: like i told you i was wicked out of it
somethingvaguexo: i can see things so much clearer now
HeadSmasherMan: what do you see
clearer
HeadSmasherMan: make me feel better of yu still
care
HeadSmasherMan: if you*
somethingvaguexo: of course i do
HeadSmasherMan: so what doyou see
clearer
somethingvaguexo: well ive realized everything i did
somethingvaguexo: i dont reallyknow how to describe it but i just do
somethingvaguexo: and i really would take it all back
HeadSmasherMan: ok well nowi cna move on, now that i
know you didn't mean it
HeadSmasherMan: unless you are just saying
that
HeadSmasherMan: but how would i
know
somethingvaguexo: no im not just saying that
HeadSmasherMan: i don't even know you
anymore
somethingvaguexo: if i was just saying that and didnt care i wouldnt have wrote back to
you
HeadSmasherMan: yea
somethingvaguexo: im still the same person i assure you, but i understand your
doubts
HeadSmasherMan: why
are you talking like this
HeadSmasherMan: i
have said awful things about you
HeadSmasherMan: all
the time
somethingvaguexo: i dont know
somethingvaguexo: i dont care
HeadSmasherMan: i
just thought i sohuld tell you
somethingvaguexo: okay
HeadSmasherMan: you
have no idea how much i wanted to die
somethingvaguexo: i dont care because i deserve it
HeadSmasherMan: after everything you did with those guys and not telling me and me
sitting by your bed 3 times, and taking in all the stress and grief and then
your friends coming in afterwards and picking you right up after everything is
fine
HeadSmasherMan: and
think its all my fault
HeadSmasherMan: and
so do you
HeadSmasherMan: its
horrible
HeadSmasherMan: this is the worst thign ever has happened to me
HeadSmasherMan: the
worst way this could have happened
somethingvaguexo: i know, i already told you if i could take it back i would in a
second
HeadSmasherMan
: i
made my mom buy a new hard driove
HeadSmasherMan
: to
get qanyhting off the computer that would incrimante me
HeadSmasherMan: my
lawyer told me to
somethingvaguexo: like what?
HeadSmasherMan: incase of raope charges
somethingvaguexo: yeah
HeadSmasherMan: like anythig i may have said to anyone
HeadSmasherMan: its
was 125$
somethingvaguexo: oh
somethingvaguexo: is it faster?
HeadSmasherMan: no
i don't care
HeadSmasherMan: i
just hate this
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: and
its never gouing ot end
somethingvaguexo: ok..
HeadSmasherMan: your not gonna wanna hear this, but i blocked everones
sn
HeadSmasherMan: including yours
HeadSmasherMan: on
my regular sn's
somethingvaguexo: i already knew that
HeadSmasherMan: like everyone
HeadSmasherMan: how
did you know that
somethingvaguexo: ok?
HeadSmasherMan: man
im not telling steve anything anymore
somethingvaguexo: cuz you werent on, and your always on
HeadSmasherMan: oh
HeadSmasherMan: well whatever, i don't plan on unblcoking any9one
somethingvaguexo: its okay i dont blame you
HeadSmasherMan: and
im not going ot forgive you for this
somethingvaguexo: im not asking you to
HeadSmasherMan: i
jst wanna tell you that
HeadSmasherMan: ok
i know
HeadSmasherMan: im
just saying
somethingvaguexo: i know, im not the one who imed you
HeadSmasherMan: this is going to be with me forveer
somethingvaguexo: and me too
HeadSmasherMan: i
hadto ask you that question
somethingvaguexo: dont think i dont care
somethingvaguexo: because i do
somethingvaguexo: and it kills me
HeadSmasherMan: how
so
somethingvaguexo: i think about what i did to you everysday and i cry
HeadSmasherMan: why
is there a heart in there?
HeadSmasherMan: whos that for
somethingvaguexo: yes
somethingvaguexo: you
HeadSmasherMan: are
you kidding me?
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: im actually crying right now too
HeadSmasherMan: well thats sweet, but this can never be right, so don't cry and try to
forget me
HeadSmasherMan: you
might want to tell wilkee
HeadSmasherMan: hahahaha
HeadSmasherMan: thats funny
somethingvaguexo: no i never want to
somethingvaguexo: tell wilkee what?
HeadSmasherMan: about what the heart is for
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: ohhhhhhhh
somethingvaguexo: um nm
somethingvaguexo: no its not
somethingvaguexo: i didnt know what you were talking about
HeadSmasherMan: uhh
HeadSmasherMan: so
whos the heart for
somethingvaguexo: no one
HeadSmasherMan: in
your profile
somethingvaguexo: i just have it in trhere
somethingvaguexo: its kinda for both if that makes sence
HeadSmasherMan: HeadSmasherMan: why
is there a heart in there?
HeadSmasherMan:
whos that for
somethingvaguexo: yes
somethingvaguexo: you
HeadSmasherMan: ???
somethingvaguexo: i thouhgt you meant like oh you have a heart because you cry or
something
somethingvaguexo: and i meant i cry for you
HeadSmasherMan: oh
no sorryt
HeadSmasherMan: well don't
HeadSmasherMan: im
doing fine
HeadSmasherMan: im
just lonely
HeadSmasherMan: i
have a date with this girl on tuesday
HeadSmasherMan: from school
somethingvaguexo: aw
HeadSmasherMan: not
a date
HeadSmasherMan: but
you know whatever
somethingvaguexo: hah who
HeadSmasherMan: this girl in my class, ethics class
HeadSmasherMan: you
already have a boyfriend
HeadSmasherMan: hahah
somethingvaguexo: ?
somethingvaguexo: so
HeadSmasherMan: why
HeadSmasherMan: you
said you didn't want one
somethingvaguexo: i didnt ask you out i just asked who it was
HeadSmasherMan: and
you always said wilkee was dumb
HeadSmasherMan: i
know that
HeadSmasherMan: her
name?
somethingvaguexo: yeah well
somethingvaguexo: yea i guess
HeadSmasherMan: mellisa
HeadSmasherMan: or
howveer you spell that
somethingvaguexo: why where is your date
HeadSmasherMan: its
not realy a date im going tolunch with her after class
HeadSmasherMan: no
big deal
somethingvaguexo: ha okay
HeadSmasherMan: why
does it matter
somethingvaguexo: it doesnt
HeadSmasherMan: why
are you going out with wilkee
somethingvaguexo: im just nosey
somethingvaguexo: because i like him
HeadSmasherMan: you
always said he was boring and you hated him
HeadSmasherMan: uhhh gross?
HeadSmasherMan: hjahaha
HeadSmasherMan: you
always made funof him
HeadSmasherMan: !!
somethingvaguexo: yeah well that was when i was a frosh
HeadSmasherMan: a
what???
somethingvaguexo: hes different and not boring
somethingvaguexo: freshman
somethingvaguexo: haha
HeadSmasherMan: i
beg to differ that he is boring
HeadSmasherMan: but
oh well
HeadSmasherMan: have fun with him
somethingvaguexo: haha im the one who hangs out with him
HeadSmasherMan: hes
the catch indeed
somethingvaguexo: meh
HeadSmasherMan: ahahaha
HeadSmasherMan: but
whatever
HeadSmasherMan: i
go to the gym everyday now
somethingvaguexo: its not like ill marry him
HeadSmasherMan: i
got a memebership
somethingvaguexo: cool
HeadSmasherMan: i
lost 15 pounds already
somethingvaguexo: i lost 10 pounds
somethingvaguexo: wow
HeadSmasherMan: awesopme
HeadSmasherMan: hahah
HeadSmasherMan: im
down to 175 already
somethingvaguexo: i weigh 135
HeadSmasherMan: cool
somethingvaguexo: hah
somethingvaguexo: yea cuz i dont eat shiit
somethingvaguexo: haha
HeadSmasherMan: i
ruined my back
HeadSmasherMan: and
my arm
somethingvaguexo: that sucks
HeadSmasherMan: i
eat nohting to
HeadSmasherMan: yea
i can't move
somethingvaguexo: well dont become anorexic
HeadSmasherMan: i
burned the tape we made
HeadSmasherMan: i
will
HeadSmasherMan: on
my deck
somethingvaguexo: okay cool
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: huh?
somethingvaguexo: what am i supposed to say?
HeadSmasherMan: i
have no idea
somethingvaguexo: okay
HeadSmasherMan: i
shaved my goat also
HeadSmasherMan: like a week ago
somethingvaguexo: why
HeadSmasherMan: i
dunno i just did
somethingvaguexo: intreresdyting
HeadSmasherMan: to
change myself
somethingvaguexo: wow i can type
HeadSmasherMan: im
os different now
somethingvaguexo: me too
somethingvaguexo: my hair is different
HeadSmasherMan: cool
HeadSmasherMan: thast not what i meant
somethingvaguexo: i know
somethingvaguexo: but i have too
HeadSmasherMan: what happened to your car
somethingvaguexo: how have you changed
HeadSmasherMan: all
ways
somethingvaguexo: like...?
somethingvaguexo: the camry was in the shop so we had a rent a cat
HeadSmasherMan: like my total attitude, i think i droive myself crazy for a
while
HeadSmasherMan: i
think i still might be
HeadSmasherMan: like i was a menatl ppatient in the real world for a
week
somethingvaguexo: might be what?
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: crazy
somethingvaguexo: hmm
somethingvaguexo: is that bad?
HeadSmasherMan: yes
very
HeadSmasherMan: my
mood is up and down i take tons of pills now
somethingvaguexo: wow
HeadSmasherMan: im
sick cuz i was so drained emotionally
HeadSmasherMan: so
i got sick
HeadSmasherMan: my
throat my chest, i have a cold a cough
HeadSmasherMan: im
dying
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: yes
somethingvaguexo: what kinda pills do you take?
HeadSmasherMan: lexapro, advil, vitamin c, couhg medicine, all this
morning
HeadSmasherMan: i
slept til 1
somethingvaguexo: ohh
somethingvaguexo: i slept til 11
HeadSmasherMan: thats good, i was up late though
HeadSmasherMan: so
HeadSmasherMan: what do you do now
HeadSmasherMan: besides going ot the mall everyday
somethingvaguexo: haha how do you know that
HeadSmasherMan: i
know everything
HeadSmasherMan: i
told you
HeadSmasherMan: always will
HeadSmasherMan: i*
somethingvaguexo: 5 times in 3 days
HeadSmasherMan: i
know that
somethingvaguexo: and im going tomororow
HeadSmasherMan: wiked awesome pick up some more guys
HeadSmasherMan: and
cheat on wilkee
HeadSmasherMan: then he'll know how i feel
somethingvaguexo: yeah okay im not gonna talk to u now bye
HeadSmasherMan: oh
come on, thin about how i feel about this
HeadSmasherMan: i
deserve to say some stuff
somethingvaguexo: yeah you do but i dont have to listen
HeadSmasherMan: i
know but you should, i would
HeadSmasherMan: but
wait
HeadSmasherMan: thats what you always said
somethingvaguexo: fine whatever
HeadSmasherMan: im
nto you
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: your not me, you always aaid that, i was always nice to you and you were
mean
somethingvaguexo: nm
HeadSmasherMan: an
di said i would not do that
HeadSmasherMan: and
you said im not you
somethingvaguexo: okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy whatever
HeadSmasherMan: what??
HeadSmasherMan: you
asked me what
HeadSmasherMan: i
explained
somethingvaguexo: okay nevermind
HeadSmasherMan: are
you sick of me yet???
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: yea
sure
somethingvaguexo: if i was i wouldve blocked you
HeadSmasherMan: no
you would not have
somethingvaguexo: i know
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha, so what do you do now
HeadSmasherMan: doyou stay up til like 2 now?
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: so
tell me
somethingvaguexo: i go to bed at 11
somethingvaguexo: well um nothing really
somethingvaguexo: i went to breakfast yesterday and tehn wilkees hoyuse
HeadSmasherMan: o
know
HeadSmasherMan: i
somethingvaguexo: nothing exciting
somethingvaguexo: if you know why are you asking
HeadSmasherMan: how
was that awkward silnce at wilkees
somethingvaguexo: there was none
HeadSmasherMan: hahahhaha
HeadSmasherMan: i
really doubt that
somethingvaguexo: hmm..ok
HeadSmasherMan: you
don't really talk to people
HeadSmasherMan: constantly
HeadSmasherMan: like on and on
somethingvaguexo: yeah well im sure you can ask him that i talked just
fine
HeadSmasherMan: about what
HeadSmasherMan: about how you made fun of him for 2 years??
HeadSmasherMan: and
then went out with him
HeadSmasherMan: haha this is werid
somethingvaguexo: whatever i just did that cuz i liked you obviously
HeadSmasherMan: no
thats not why
HeadSmasherMan: you
volunteered
HeadSmasherMan: you
never talked ot him insc hool
HeadSmasherMan: unless you lied about that too
somethingvaguexo: whatever if u just wanna critisize me i dont wanna talk to
you
HeadSmasherMan: like colin
HeadSmasherMan: have you seen him yet?
HeadSmasherMan: hows that going
somethingvaguexo: nope
HeadSmasherMan: thats a shame
somethingvaguexo: havent talked to him eityher
somethingvaguexo: you know what gerry im sorry for talking to you bye
HeadSmasherMan: sorry im still so mad about all this
HeadSmasherMan: me
too
HeadSmasherMan: maybe i should wait a while
HeadSmasherMan: so
im nto os mad
HeadSmasherMan: but
thats not gonn ahappen
HeadSmasherMan: so
i dunno
HeadSmasherMan: do
you see how man i am at you??
HeadSmasherMan: mad*
somethingvaguexo: yea
HeadSmasherMan: what doi you think of that
HeadSmasherMan: everytone else knows
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: i
yell and scream in my car saying how much i hate all of you
guys
HeadSmasherMan: i
lost my vpoice
HeadSmasherMan: i
was screaming
HeadSmasherMan: singing
HeadSmasherMan: like
HeadSmasherMan: its
scary
HeadSmasherMan: i
was going to buya gun online
HeadSmasherMan: and
kill people
HeadSmasherMan: but
i didn't
somethingvaguexo: good
HeadSmasherMan: it
could still happen
HeadSmasherMan: i
ade a hit list
HeadSmasherMan: made
HeadSmasherMan: me
and chris did
HeadSmasherMan: but
i burned it
HeadSmasherMan: its
in my head
HeadSmasherMan: hmmm
HeadSmasherMan: ok
HeadSmasherMan: thats nice
somethingvaguexo: thats nice? look at what u just fucking wrote
HeadSmasherMan: i
know
HeadSmasherMan: what i FUCKING wrote
HeadSmasherMan: and...
HeadSmasherMan: you
said nothing
somethingvaguexo: yeah
HeadSmasherMan: yea
somethingvaguexo: cuz ur scaring me
HeadSmasherMan: you
don't think im scaring myself??
HeadSmasherMan: do
you have any idea!!!!! what this has done to me!!??!?!
HeadSmasherMan: it
totally crushed my very will to do anything
HeadSmasherMan: i
stopped doing everything
somethingvaguexo: what about school
HeadSmasherMan: i
left the fridge open
HeadSmasherMan: i
leave things where i put them
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't close my door
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't make my bed
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't put my seatbelt on
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't do anyhting
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't eat
HeadSmasherMan: i
don't sleep
HeadSmasherMan: i
drive and rive and drive
HeadSmasherMan: driveing is the only thing i have
HeadSmasherMan: and
the gym
HeadSmasherMan: thats all i do
somethingvaguexo: what about school
HeadSmasherMan: school id going on and o and on
HeadSmasherMan: im
quiting
HeadSmasherMan: soon
somethingvaguexo: why
HeadSmasherMan: im
sick of all this shit
somethingvaguexo: what are you going to do?
HeadSmasherMan: cuz
you ruined my everything and i do not have enough strength to go on with
everything
HeadSmasherMan: im
nothing
HeadSmasherMan: everyone thinks im am the worst person in the world
HeadSmasherMan: let
me tell youa a story
HeadSmasherMan: ok?
somethingvaguexo: yea
HeadSmasherMan: in
ethics class were talking about if there is a truly altruistic act, which means
an act that is solely done for someone else and the perons performing the act
gets nothing out of it, not even a thnak you
HeadSmasherMan: i
didn't answer
HeadSmasherMan: even i have commited such an act
HeadSmasherMan: even though
HeadSmasherMan: the
night i came to yout house the 2nd time you cut yourself
HeadSmasherMan: and
the cops were there
HeadSmasherMan: i
was going 90 down shaw st. i passed 5 cars, 2 around corners, all to see your
weelbeing was alright
HeadSmasherMan: i
didn't want to say that in class though
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: i
ran a red light
HeadSmasherMan: right behind the cop
HeadSmasherMan: and
i sat gby your bed for hours upon hours
HeadSmasherMan: dealt with your parents
HeadSmasherMan: all
to see you were ok
HeadSmasherMan: i
had no expectations
HeadSmasherMan: and
then you call me and scream at me
HeadSmasherMan: and
threaten me
HeadSmasherMan: and
i try to do something by calling the cosp
HeadSmasherMan: and
they alugh at me also
HeadSmasherMan: laugh
HeadSmasherMan: and
that was the end of it
HeadSmasherMan: it
was going to stop right then or i would have been dead by
morning
HeadSmasherMan: seriously
HeadSmasherMan: and
it did
HeadSmasherMan: i
do NOT want to go down like this
HeadSmasherMan: im
moving as soon as my court date is over
somethingvaguexo: how
HeadSmasherMan: because i can't take this anymore
HeadSmasherMan: why
won;t you say anything about what i jyst said
somethingvaguexo: im crying too hard
HeadSmasherMan: oh
HeadSmasherMan: im
sorry
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: you
know i loved and you did something so bad to me, and ido not want to keep
telling you this
HeadSmasherMan: but
i don't know if you even rwalize ir
HeadSmasherMan: it
somethingvaguexo: yeah, i do
HeadSmasherMan: ok
well thats good i guess, betterthan not getting it
somethingvaguexo: how are you going to move without money
HeadSmasherMan: its
ok i will find a way
HeadSmasherMan: theres no way im staying here in fear
HeadSmasherMan: of
all your friends fucking with me
somethingvaguexo: like out of state?
HeadSmasherMan: yes
very much out of state
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: veryyy
HeadSmasherMan: way
away away from here i'll be way away away so you can how it feels to be
alone
HeadSmasherMan: thats a song
somethingvaguexo: but im not going out with you so i wouildnt feel
aloine
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha i know
HeadSmasherMan: even if you were
HeadSmasherMan: why
would you cae
HeadSmasherMan: care
HeadSmasherMan: i
was just there
HeadSmasherMan: all
the time
HeadSmasherMan: and
nwo im not
HeadSmasherMan: now
HeadSmasherMan: did
ever even love me?
somethingvaguexo: i wouldnt see you igf you moved or not
somethingvaguexo: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDINHG ME?
HeadSmasherMan: yes
or no would be fine
somethingvaguexo: yes
HeadSmasherMan: so
im still never going ot see you again?
somethingvaguexo: well your moving..
HeadSmasherMan: we'll run into eachother trust me
HeadSmasherMan: well not right away
somethingvaguexo: i hope so
HeadSmasherMan: why?!?
somethingvaguexo: ok.
HeadSmasherMan: your friends would laugh at me
somethingvaguexo: nm
HeadSmasherMan: so
would you
somethingvaguexo: no i wouldnt
HeadSmasherMan: well i would not want to anyway cuz they woul;d
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: but
we'l run intoi eachother sometime
HeadSmasherMan: are
you getting your licnese
somethingvaguexo: march 2
HeadSmasherMan: once again not a great idea but whatever
somethingvaguexo: i dont care
HeadSmasherMan: ok
somethingvaguexo: i just wanna get it
somethingvaguexo: im not gonna drive
HeadSmasherMan: oh
well ok
HeadSmasherMan: so what do you do
now
HeadSmasherMan: are you with people all the
time
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: or do you stay
home
somethingvaguexo: i usually stay hjome
somethingvaguexo: i have the past 2 days
somethingvaguexo: but went out at 7
HeadSmasherMan: im always out somewhere with
someone
HeadSmasherMan: im out wicked late
everyday
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: ok?
HeadSmasherMan: i can't wait til vaction is
over
HeadSmasherMan: so i can go to bed on
time
somethingvaguexo: ya
HeadSmasherMan: i got o bed at like 1 and get up at
like 7:30
HeadSmasherMan: it sucks
HeadSmasherMan: cuz no one has
school
somethingvaguexo: yea
HeadSmasherMan: whats wrong
HeadSmasherMan: why are you mad
somethingvaguexo: im not
HeadSmasherMan: uhh o
HeadSmasherMan: k
HeadSmasherMan: so everyone thinks i like that young
girl now?
HeadSmasherMan: did you hang out with her and
jen??
HeadSmasherMan: hahahaha
HeadSmasherMan: that would be
funny
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: so everything thinks i like
her?
somethingvaguexo: yea
HeadSmasherMan: like i told you about her and then
you throw it in my face the next day
HeadSmasherMan: that was nice
HeadSmasherMan: why
HeadSmasherMan: i don't like her
somethingvaguexo: ok? i dont care
somethingvaguexo: neither does anyone else
HeadSmasherMan: i have not talked ot her since last
week
somethingvaguexo: ok
HeadSmasherMan: until today
HeadSmasherMan: she s afriend
HeadSmasherMan: im never gonna see her in my life
again
HeadSmasherMan: so why do peope think i like
her
somethingvaguexo: ok?
somethingvaguexo: i dont know ask jen
HeadSmasherMan: jen sucks
somethingvaguexo: shes the one who told everyone that'
HeadSmasherMan: awesome
HeadSmasherMan: whata fuckin bitch
HeadSmasherMan: i took her out of my
phone
HeadSmasherMan: and everyone else
somethingvaguexo: ok
HeadSmasherMan: i'll let you go
somethingvaguexo: why
HeadSmasherMan: cuz your busy and not
talking
somethingvaguexo: actually i am
HeadSmasherMan: yes one word
somethingvaguexo: and im not talking to anyone else
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: ?
HeadSmasherMan: i have not got a phone call on my
cell phone for a week!!!
HeadSmasherMan: its awesome
somethingvaguexo: cool
HeadSmasherMan: there was this trigger type
thing
HeadSmasherMan: like the phone
buzzed
HeadSmasherMan: and i died
somethingvaguexo: hah
somethingvaguexo: sorry
HeadSmasherMan: like from the thing doign
that
HeadSmasherMan: beause of all this
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: yea well a million sorrys won't be
enough, and do you know what kills me the most???
somethingvaguexo: what
HeadSmasherMan: the fact that all your friends think
its still my fault, and they will never know otherwise
HeadSmasherMan: cuz no one cares enough to tell
them
HeadSmasherMan: and thats why im
leaving
somethingvaguexo: oh
HeadSmasherMan: shannon got rally
fat
HeadSmasherMan: hahahah
somethingvaguexo: no she didnt
HeadSmasherMan: hahahan yes hse
did!@!!!
somethingvaguexo: oik?
HeadSmasherMan: shes like a
basketball
HeadSmasherMan: i saw her at dd
somethingvaguexo: hm
HeadSmasherMan: what
somethingvaguexo: i dont think shes fat a t all
HeadSmasherMan: hmm ok well look again lady shes
getting a little large
somethingvaguexo: right
HeadSmasherMan: i have watched american psycho like
24 times in the alst 3 days
HeadSmasherMan: its inspiring
HeadSmasherMan: i want to kill many
people
somethingvaguexo: thats really messed up
HeadSmasherMan: i know it is
HeadSmasherMan: it makes me feel
better
HeadSmasherMan: so its fine to me
HeadSmasherMan: lots of things are more messed up
than that
somethingvaguexo: i think u need to go somewhere
HeadSmasherMan: hahahan yea fucking
right
HeadSmasherMan: im not doin thart
HeadSmasherMan: im doing this myself or im
dead
HeadSmasherMan: thats the 2
options
somethingvaguexo: i now ur not but you should
HeadSmasherMan: yes i know that
HeadSmasherMan: but not now
HeadSmasherMan: maybe a week ago
somethingvaguexo: you better not do anything
HeadSmasherMan: hahahahahah right
HeadSmasherMan: im gonna listen to anyone at this
point
HeadSmasherMan: lie i really care
now
HeadSmasherMan: my last glimmer of hope is that girl
at school
somethingvaguexo: do u want me to call the cops and ensure that you dont hurt me or my
friends?
HeadSmasherMan: why would i hurt your
friends
HeadSmasherMan: what are you talking
about
somethingvaguexo: hm i wonder
HeadSmasherMan: they would arrest
me
somethingvaguexo: i know
HeadSmasherMan: stop thretening me
again
somethingvaguexo: WHAT?
HeadSmasherMan: yes
somethingvaguexo: look at what you just fucking said!!!!!!!!!!!!
HeadSmasherMan: what did i say
somethingvaguexo: masherMan: i want to kill many
people
HeadSmasherMan: yes i do
HeadSmasherMan: and whats your
point
HeadSmasherMan: i never said who
HeadSmasherMan: i never i was going
to
HeadSmasherMan: i said i want to
somethingvaguexo: hit list
HeadSmasherMan: yea
somethingvaguexo: the gun
HeadSmasherMan: there is none
somethingvaguexo: yeah okay gerry
HeadSmasherMan: there is none
HeadSmasherMan: the gun is still
online
HeadSmasherMan: not at my house
HeadSmasherMan: the hitlist is non
existant
somethingvaguexo: whatever
HeadSmasherMan: and if i want to kill people, i can
think that
HeadSmasherMan: stop being mad i didn;t do
anything
HeadSmasherMan: do you see hwo mad i
am?>??????
HeadSmasherMan: thats what im trying toge t
across
somethingvaguexo: i see that
HeadSmasherMan: yes!! but you don't
care!!!
HeadSmasherMan: if you did you would not have do
it
somethingvaguexo: talking to you is like talking to a wall
HeadSmasherMan: no its not
somethingvaguexo: i already told you if i could take it all back i would
HeadSmasherMan: there is nothjing you can say to
change this
somethingvaguexo: which obviously means i care, now doesntr it?
HeadSmasherMan: yes it does
somethingvaguexo: okay then why am i talking to you????????/
HeadSmasherMan: i have no idea
HeadSmasherMan: sorry i'll leave you
alone
somethingvaguexo: okay well im gonna stop now
HeadSmasherMan: stop what
somethingvaguexo: talking to you
HeadSmasherMan: oh ok have fun with wilkee, i hope it
lasts a whole week
HeadSmasherMan: don't get mad you would say the same
thing
somethingvaguexo: mhmm
HeadSmasherMan: yea
HeadSmasherMan: so what are you doing
tonight
somethingvaguexo: it doesnt matter
HeadSmasherMan: hahahahha
HeadSmasherMan: ohhhhhk
HeadSmasherMan: thats real nice
somethingvaguexo: wilkees coming over
HeadSmasherMan: sorry im trying not to
laugh
HeadSmasherMan: well ttrying to
stop
HeadSmasherMan: have fun with his lard ass pizza
face
HeadSmasherMan: i hate evetone
HeadSmasherMan: yone
HeadSmasherMan: and i want everone to
die
HeadSmasherMan: including me
somethingvaguexo: yeah
somethingvaguexo: well your wish will come true
HeadSmasherMan: i ghope
so:-):-):-)
HeadSmasherMan: cuz i really want everyone ot
dioe
somethingvaguexo: im sure you'll be happy
HeadSmasherMan: i would be
HeadSmasherMan: i have never felt this
way
somethingvaguexo: no im not kidding either gerry
HeadSmasherMan: about what
HeadSmasherMan: about calling the
cops
HeadSmasherMan: ooooo
HeadSmasherMan: hahahaha
somethingvaguexo: people being dead
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: i'lll just drive into a
wall
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
HeadSmasherMan: fun fun fun
somethingvaguexo: I DIDNT SAY THAT
HeadSmasherMan: i know
somethingvaguexo: i mean im not kidding that people are going to die
HeadSmasherMan: hmmm well thats
interesting
HeadSmasherMan: i will belive that when i see
it
somethingvaguexo: you will alright
HeadSmasherMan: no one is gonna
die
HeadSmasherMan: except maybe me
somethingvaguexo: you wanna makle a bet
HeadSmasherMan: yes
HeadSmasherMan: i will betyou
anything
somethingvaguexo: how much
somethingvaguexo: oh wait it wont matter
HeadSmasherMan: i'll you 200 pounds of wilkee
ass
HeadSmasherMan: thats half
somethingvaguexo: you think this is funny
HeadSmasherMan: i think that line
was
HeadSmasherMan: hahahaha
HeadSmasherMan: you have to admit that was
funny
somethingvaguexo: i hope that made you happy
HeadSmasherMan: it kind of did
actually
HeadSmasherMan: thank you
HeadSmasherMan: so whos gonna die
HeadSmasherMan: don;t do this ot me
again
somethingvaguexo: you dont even understand do you
HeadSmasherMan: stop saying shitlike
thatr
HeadSmasherMan: you have alife now
HeadSmasherMan: im the one stuck with
nothing
HeadSmasherMan: you won
somethingvaguexo: hahah
HeadSmasherMan: ok?
HeadSmasherMan: is that what you wann
hear>?
HeadSmasherMan: you won
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: you have everything you
want
HeadSmasherMan: i have nothing
HeadSmasherMan: you win
HeadSmasherMan: its over
somethingvaguexo: youd like to think that
HeadSmasherMan: i know that
somethingvaguexo: hahaha
HeadSmasherMan: i have nothingof whta i
want
HeadSmasherMan: all i wanted was
you
somethingvaguexo: and when you get it you wish you didnt
HeadSmasherMan: get what
somethingvaguexo: get what you want. like a life
HeadSmasherMan: why
HeadSmasherMan: i have one
HeadSmasherMan: i don't like it
somethingvaguexo: i know but when you get one you do like, you'll wish you
didnt
somethingvaguexo: trust me
HeadSmasherMan: i don't understand,
why
HeadSmasherMan: tell me don't say trust
me
somethingvaguexo: it doesnt really matter
HeadSmasherMan: explain
HeadSmasherMan: explain
HeadSmasherMan: what did you do
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: what?
HeadSmasherMan: what did you do
somethingvaguexo: nothing
HeadSmasherMan: did you smoke
drink?
somethingvaguexo: haha actually no
HeadSmasherMan: wow
HeadSmasherMan: thats surprising
HeadSmasherMan: but anyway
HeadSmasherMan: explain please
somethingvaguexo: you think this is all a joke
HeadSmasherMan: not really
HeadSmasherMan: im sweating through my
shirt
HeadSmasherMan: so no
somethingvaguexo: yes you keep laughing
HeadSmasherMan: well its funny
HeadSmasherMan: can you just tell
me??
somethingvaguexo: well let me remind you....this is not ajoke
somethingvaguexo: theres nothing to tell
HeadSmasherMan: uhhh ok
somethingvaguexo: you dont understand now, but you will
HeadSmasherMan: when i get a life i will wish i
didn't have one??
HeadSmasherMan: why will i??
HeadSmasherMan: whta does that
mean??!
somethingvaguexo: its just the way life works, when you get something you want or dream
about it doesnt seem as good as it used to
HeadSmasherMan: like what
HeadSmasherMan: example
somethingvaguexo: just everything for example
somethingvaguexo: life for example
HeadSmasherMan: ok no
HeadSmasherMan: example
HeadSmasherMan: like mom my
HeadSmasherMan: or wilkee
HeadSmasherMan: or my friends
HeadSmasherMan: who suck
HeadSmasherMan: example
somethingvaguexo: ok
HeadSmasherMan: ok so?////
somethingvaguexo: i dont know what you want me to say
HeadSmasherMan: an example!!
somethingvaguexo: i dont have an example
HeadSmasherMan: that your
experiencing
HeadSmasherMan: than how are you saying
this
somethingvaguexo: lets just forget i said anythung
HeadSmasherMan: hmm how about...
HeadSmasherMan: no
somethingvaguexo: i made you a bunny in westwood lodge
HeadSmasherMan: i know
somethingvaguexo: im giving that to you
HeadSmasherMan: hahahha how???
HeadSmasherMan: like next year
somethingvaguexo: i dont know somehow you'll get it
HeadSmasherMan: give it to me in perosn or i don't
want it
somethingvaguexo: it has a heart in the middle so you can be reminded of
me
somethingvaguexo: oh....
somethingvaguexo: then nevermind that wont work
HeadSmasherMan: why would i want to be remined of
you? look what i have been going through, have you not seen what i have been
writing???
somethingvaguexo: i see it believe me
somethingvaguexo: but you might want it later
HeadSmasherMan: i am never going to forget this,
there is so many levels to this and i still don't even know the
truth
somethingvaguexo: no trust me
somethingvaguexo: you might want it
HeadSmasherMan: i have stuff from
you
HeadSmasherMan: if i didn';t throw it
out
HeadSmasherMan: i might have
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: you will want this
HeadSmasherMan: can you tell me
why?
somethingvaguexo: because of what we are talking about right n ow
somethingvaguexo: you will think of this
somethingvaguexo: and then want it
somethingvaguexo: because im pleading you to take it
HeadSmasherMan: no i won't, i will tell you waht im
ging to think aout
somethingvaguexo: okay finre
somethingvaguexo: fine*
HeadSmasherMan: im going ot think baout how you left
me alone, out in the cold with no one, and you going back to wilkee, and all the
shit you said to me child molested, im a fuckin sicko
HeadSmasherMan: thats what im gonna think
about
HeadSmasherMan: this is really bad
somethingvaguexo: no youre not
HeadSmasherMan: im thinking about it right
now
HeadSmasherMan: nothing is going to erase
that
somethingvaguexo: now is not tomorrow
HeadSmasherMan: ok but i have been thinking about
this for a whole week, over that
HeadSmasherMan: i had to pay 15 bucks to change my
cell number again
somethingvaguexo: okay well lets just forget about this
somethingvaguexo: just remember the bunny
somethingvaguexo: and how i want you to have it
HeadSmasherMan: what are you trying to
do
HeadSmasherMan: ??
somethingvaguexo: nothing
HeadSmasherMan: scroll upwards
somethingvaguexo: yeah?
HeadSmasherMan: look how you have been
talking
HeadSmasherMan: what are you trying to
do
somethingvaguexo: what do you mean
HeadSmasherMan: please take it you will want
it
HeadSmasherMan: it will make you thinkof
me
somethingvaguexo: i just want you to have it
HeadSmasherMan: can you tell my why
though
HeadSmasherMan: you never wanna see my face
again
somethingvaguexo: its symbolic
HeadSmasherMan: so why would i want
it
HeadSmasherMan: of what
somethingvaguexo: me
HeadSmasherMan: give it to wilkee
somethingvaguexo: hahaha
HeadSmasherMan: he'll like it
somethingvaguexo: why would i do that
somethingvaguexo: its for you
HeadSmasherMan: cuz hes your bf??
somethingvaguexo: it was made for you and only you
HeadSmasherMan: did you have a
valentine?
somethingvaguexo: the only person who can have it, is you or else it has to be
destroyed
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: has to be
HeadSmasherMan: ?
HeadSmasherMan: what os on this
thing
HeadSmasherMan: i don't get it
somethingvaguexo: niothing
somethingvaguexo: just a heart
HeadSmasherMan: uh huh and what
else
HeadSmasherMan: whjat is it
HeadSmasherMan: ceramic?
somethingvaguexo: a bunny
somethingvaguexo: yes
HeadSmasherMan: you mad eit wil colin who gave you
his# and you lied tome about it
HeadSmasherMan: thats what i'll think
baout
HeadSmasherMan: see
somethingvaguexo: no you wont
HeadSmasherMan: my head is full of
this
HeadSmasherMan: yes i will
somethingvaguexo: youll think about this conversation
HeadSmasherMan: there is layer sna
dlayers
somethingvaguexo: you still dont understand
HeadSmasherMan: yes and what ami thinking
about
HeadSmasherMan: no!!
HeadSmasherMan: i don't
somethingvaguexo: im telling you, that you will think of this conversatiion, just trust
me
HeadSmasherMan: why can;'t you just tell me
why??!
HeadSmasherMan: it would be easier
somethingvaguexo: it doesnt matter, you dont have to understand
HeadSmasherMan: uhhh
somethingvaguexo: you will someday
HeadSmasherMan: ok now your being
weird
HeadSmasherMan: what does that
mean
HeadSmasherMan: in like 10
yearsd!!?
somethingvaguexo: forget it
HeadSmasherMan: hahaha
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: im so coinfused
somethingvaguexo: its okay
HeadSmasherMan: if you would tell me it would
beok
HeadSmasherMan: how was kissing the
beast
HeadSmasherMan: hahahaha
somethingvaguexo: beok?
somethingvaguexo: thank you
HeadSmasherMan: be ok
HeadSmasherMan: thank me why
somethingvaguexo: just thank you
HeadSmasherMan: uhhhh!!
HeadSmasherMan: come on kate!
somethingvaguexo: no need to explain
HeadSmasherMan: omg
somethingvaguexo: :-)
HeadSmasherMan: ok thats enough of
this
somethingvaguexo: okay
HeadSmasherMan: im going to the bpwlnm
alley
somethingvaguexo: see ya
HeadSmasherMan: no stop
somethingvaguexo: yeah?
HeadSmasherMan: what the hell
HeadSmasherMan: stop it!!1
somethingvaguexo: what?
somethingvaguexo: what????/
HeadSmasherMan: thank you for
whta?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
somethingvaguexo: saying that
HeadSmasherMan: saying
what?!?!?!?!?!
HeadSmasherMan: so you know hes good
enough
somethingvaguexo: how was kissing the beast
HeadSmasherMan: hes a threat to me so hes ok
now
HeadSmasherMan: ?
HeadSmasherMan: ???
HeadSmasherMan: i don't get it
HeadSmasherMan: so hes good enough for you cuz i hate
him????
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: ok so why???????
HeadSmasherMan: hes ugly, so what
somethingvaguexo: no one will ever be good enough
HeadSmasherMan: i called him a
beast
somethingvaguexo: nevermind!
HeadSmasherMan: you kissed him
HeadSmasherMan: there you go
HeadSmasherMan: nothigto it
somethingvaguexo: you put things in persepective
HeadSmasherMan: please explin
HeadSmasherMan: omg
HeadSmasherMan: what in
perspective
somethingvaguexo: my life
HeadSmasherMan: that im still the same controlling
asshole?
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: what are you
saying
HeadSmasherMan: ????
somethingvaguexo: nothing, really you dont need to get all weird
HeadSmasherMan: what are you talking
about
HeadSmasherMan: i want you to tell what im putting in
perspetice
HeadSmasherMan: and why you said thank
you
somethingvaguexo: well wilkee is coming over now
HeadSmasherMan: ok fine
somethingvaguexo: just forget the reasons
HeadSmasherMan: no!!
somethingvaguexo: thank you
HeadSmasherMan: stop it!!!
HeadSmasherMan: your pissing me off
more!
somethingvaguexo: no you stop
somethingvaguexo: thanks
HeadSmasherMan: yes!!
HeadSmasherMan: so tell me!
somethingvaguexo: whatever
HeadSmasherMan: omg
somethingvaguexo: is this how you want to leave me? by being mad?
HeadSmasherMan: no!! so tell me and i'll be
fine
HeadSmasherMan: its not hard
somethingvaguexo: i just want to thank you for talking to me, i understand things now, it
doesnt matter what i learned..... just know that i thank you for
this
HeadSmasherMan: thank me for what
exactly
somethingvaguexo: it doesnt matter
HeadSmasherMan: thats the point
HeadSmasherMan: it does!!
HeadSmasherMan: after all this
HeadSmasherMan: just tell me!!
somethingvaguexo: you made me understand
HeadSmasherMan: undersatdn what
somethingvaguexo: life
HeadSmasherMan: that im still
jelous?
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: no
somethingvaguexo: its so fucking simple
HeadSmasherMan: ok then say it
HeadSmasherMan: if its simple
somethingvaguexo: i dont know! thats the thing!
somethingvaguexo: i cant describe it
somethingvaguexo: its like i understand everything now
HeadSmasherMan: everything that you did, everything
that i feel?
HeadSmasherMan: what??
somethingvaguexo: but wilkee will be here in a second
somethingvaguexo: nevermind
HeadSmasherMan: who cares!
somethingvaguexo: i do
HeadSmasherMan: tell him to wait
somethingvaguexo: okay
somethingvaguexo: but i dont want him to see what im going to say
HeadSmasherMan: ok so hurryy
HeadSmasherMan: im gonna leave in ammin
too
somethingvaguexo: i love you
somethingvaguexo: hahaha
HeadSmasherMan: is that
funny?
somethingvaguexo: no
HeadSmasherMan: or do you
meanit
somethingvaguexo: i mean it completly
somethingvaguexo: but i have to go now
HeadSmasherMan: well tahnk
you!!:'(
HeadSmasherMan: i will always
love you too
HeadSmasherMan: :'(
HeadSmasherMan: have
fun
somethingvaguexo: i'll remember that
somethingvaguexo: im sorry
HeadSmasherMan: :'(its
ok
somethingvaguexo: no its not
HeadSmasherMan: i know but i want
it to be
somethingvaguexo: it will be ok for me
somethingvaguexo: but im not so sure about everyone else
HeadSmasherMan: tell them thre
truth
somethingvaguexo: about waht
HeadSmasherMan: about
me
somethingvaguexo: its too late
HeadSmasherMan: i don't want
everyone ot hate me
somethingvaguexo: thats the point...
HeadSmasherMan: oh
HeadSmasherMan: :'(
HeadSmasherMan: well
ok
somethingvaguexo: thats why im telling you this
HeadSmasherMan: oh
HeadSmasherMan: well thank
you
HeadSmasherMan: im crying
uncontrollable
HeadSmasherMan: y
somethingvaguexo: dont forget me
somethingvaguexo: please
HeadSmasherMan: how could
i
somethingvaguexo: well you wonyt
somethingvaguexo: because i riuined your life
HeadSmasherMan: i know, but keep
in touvch
HeadSmasherMan: we can
talk
somethingvaguexo: i cant
HeadSmasherMan: oh
somethingvaguexo: im sorry
HeadSmasherMan: uhh
HeadSmasherMan: why
somethingvaguexo: fuck wilkee is here
somethingvaguexo: its just not possible
HeadSmasherMan: why can't we
talk??
HeadSmasherMan: online?
somethingvaguexo: because it hurts too bad
HeadSmasherMan: uhhh this is
worse than yesatersat
HeadSmasherMan: no
HeadSmasherMan: you have to talk
to me
HeadSmasherMan: we are still
friends sort of
HeadSmasherMan: so who
cares
somethingvaguexo: i cant, i want to soooooooooo bad but i cant
somethingvaguexo: im sorry
somethingvaguexo: i wish i could be with you
somethingvaguexo: but everything is gone
somethingvaguexo: everything
HeadSmasherMan: it
is
somethingvaguexo: i need to go
HeadSmasherMan: you cna still
talk online ot me
somethingvaguexo: im sorry
HeadSmasherMan: its up to
you
somethingvaguexo: i love you
somethingvaguexo: bye gerry
HeadSmasherMan: so what if iIM
you
HeadSmasherMan: you won't
respond? 